My visit to the pictures is still pending, I find also that my lack of presence on XBL for a while has been noted. It was Rolo-San who pointed out that I had seemed to have found a life out of the xbox that I realised this. Again the art of conversation working its wonders, educational, cheaper than drugs & a load cheaper than a gym membership (which I have & don't use anywhere as much as I should). So we've established that this whole talking thing seems to have been my most recent focus & some of you are wondering why & what the hell I'm going on about. Truth be told there's no real education to be had here.

I'll go on anyway: I've noticed within many social circles, the massive amount of 'subtext' communication. If you have seen that British comedy Coupling you may know exactly what I speak of, if not:

A small example: One person says to another as he stares at his pudding in the cafeteria with a blatant puddle of drool showing his desire for it: "You going to finish that?" much before the other guy has finished whatever it is he's eating first. Excuses such as politeness, just checking, etc are pointless here in my opinion. The guy should just say it. "Can I have your pudding?", some intermediate between the two perhaps "Hmm, I really fancy that pudding you've got there, would you mind sharing or giving it to me?"

I'd have more respect for the 15 year old chav that simply demanded it or threatened him compared to the "You going to finish that?" person. Many mayn't agree but this is me & as I said this is a small example. This whole 'hinting' thing in general, the more I notice it within social atmospheres around me, on my travels, in the office, it begins getting on my nerves more & more so over the past few months.

So as any wise person would I turn this around on myself, only to find (though far less than others) I do it myself too, thus I get on my own nerves. Now building on the small example I'll let you imagine for yourself how this 'subtext' can be applied to much bigger things than pudding, such as the politics at work or even on a global scale. "We're hoping to better the relationship of these countries & promote world peace by the signing of this treaty" instead of "Hey there, will you promise not to be firing missiles at our country if I give you my autograph? Seriously dude, PROMISE... no Krogs??". You get the picture ..

But yea, those of you that know me well enough figure I couldn't care less about pudding, global politics, or much else that doesn't directly involve me. So this lastly brings me to what's been happening & how this weight loss came about (if you ahven't gathered already).

Well, having realised this small room for improvement in my installed character build version, I've been investigating previous & pending conversations and my own use of subtext over the past year or so, reiterating them so that I know my actual message got across. In some of these instances, I realise its simply been a matter of progression, the timing has now been right, the junctions between roads have been found, etc, etc, Some of these cases have however been a long time pending. Looking back there are still conversations I would like to reiterate but the subjects/situations/opportunities are now beyond reach.

End resolution. As always the answer lies in a Shah Rukh Khan film, this time you merely need to look at the title ... Kal Ho Naa Ho (Tomorrow May Be, May Not be). Though his dialogue in the theatrical trailer that was not in the film itself is also worth a mention.

So here-on try I shall to use less of Captain Subtext and more 'to the point' honest talk, blunt & rude comments will probably not be filtered, so actually you probably won't notice any difference at all. I had a flaw. I fixed it, but even after admitting this there is no catharsis (for you), my punishment continues to elude me you and I gain no deeper knowledge of myself; no new knowledge can be extracted from my telling. This confession has meant nothing.