Humanity is inherently evil. It is the good that we do that goes against the grain, that sets us apart from the greater bulk of this species.

People that do great things in their lives often dont know their doing them or the significance of the act, sometimes they do, often they dont.
Maybe your not satisfied with what your doing because your not doing what you'd thought you'd be doing at this time or your not achieving the goals you subconciously set. Maybe your comparing your life to anothers and your not happy with what you see.
I can assure you that your doing far better than most other people, life's a journey and you my friend have only been out of the station 5 minutes. When reaching old age its impossible not to have done alot and you probably will have done something of notable worth that will be an inspiration for another weather you know it or not.

I appreciate the kind words, you're beginning to sound quite philosophical yourself .. both of you.

However Captain CHC - At the risk of sounding pompous, I'm perfectly clear about my aims & goals, & though a tad behind schedule {due to some delays with contracters ;) in the east midlands region} .. overall on the big picture, everything is pretty much on track. The problem I was trying to express here is that to achieve my goals I feel sometimes I'm willing to dip into the darker side of human nature. MOre often so than I used to. I also know everybody does this. I'm glad I can see this all from an external third party perspective. Though chances are it just make me more likely to have split personalities??

Moving back on track, I see what you're saying about wanting to have done more on a subconscious level, thats a fair comment, pretty much always the case with people with my energetic attitude - but on the brighter side it is this very thought that drives us to do more & better than anyone else.

As for the whole comment about the me_stud_me thing & that I will inspire millions - I agree with you entirely :) .. I'm glad you can see that already, the fanbase has to begin somewhere.

silEnt salutEs
_ram-jaane

This is the way i see it. You want to achieve your goals right? Then stop worrying about delving into the dark side. It's not like you are going to kill someone to achieve things, you are just going to screw some people out of money maybe hurt some people.

The way I see it if you don't do it to them then they will do it too you. So stop worrying so much, just achieve your goals and be happy dammit.

yes mom. lol {i love that bitch}

Ahh i see, i didnt entirely understand what point you were trying to make, aha the darker side of things, you and I are probably more moral than alot of other people, your strong sense of morality perhaps makes you feel as if your doing something your not so comfortable with to achive a goal, for most other people im sure what your doing or might do is fairly normal, maybe even tame.

Yea I think the bitch is right. I will now crush all mortals beneath my ego & raise to the challenge of survival. I will.

Ok, i'm not really that much of a bitch in the sense that i do care about other people. But you gotta care about yourself and your family more than anyone else. And in my case i will do anything for them, because i have seen my family get shit on and made bankrupt by other people. And I now have the mentality of do unto others as they unto to you.

So yeah I am right, but not that much of a bitch.

bless her. talking so much sense at such a young age. for the record i didn't mean to offend' ~ rj